Xaviera.Nicole

Feb 17, 2011

When we intend to do good, we do & when we intend to do harm, it happens .

Certain people have a way of saying things (even when the words may not seem harsh or offensive) / actions that shake us at the core .

Our story , you can bend it & twist it , you can misuse & abuse it .

No matter how similar , even god can't change the truth .

What's your intention ? Your day is gone face the facts !

This is pathetic , it's as though as I have been charged with crimes that I did not commit .

"A men are respectable only as they respect "

I want to be treated like an adult , respected as a human being .

I don't wish to elaborate what really happen , as I'm not suppose to , so as the matter it's over anyway . &Of course it still couldn't change how it has affected me as I'm innocent ~

I feel great that now on I can handle things on my own , at the same time I blame myself for losing control of my tears because I feel threatened .

I couldn't handle pressure , like a bipolar .

Because of what happen yesterday I couldn't keep up with the notes & stuff !

Somehow lost interest in it .. I feel hopeless ,

it's too much for me to take ..

I work really hard for these , I really love the lessons & stuff I learned .

Why is it so hard for people to just LISTEN before they start being so judgmental ?

If anyone ask how am I , I would always say I'm fine .

Would anyone ask are you alright ? They dint bother , cuz' they don't really care .

They just ask for the sake of asking .

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Yesterday incident was another shattering blow . blogg-ed at 5:39:00 PM

Dec 22, 2010

It's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this ,
I don't know how should I feel or what that I should say .

A person ,
someone that breathe , speaks , listen , laugh , cry , hates , loves , hurt , eat , walk , jump , run , wish , pray ..
So & so , his heart just stop tonight .. & gone .

Human body is just temporary , so where does this person you loves go ?

Cherish people , everyday , every mintutes , every seconds counts .

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blogg-ed at 11:19:00 PM

Dec 21, 2010

Although during those days in secondary somehow sucked ,

Still , these are the people trying to make it better ..

Thank you for every supports & encouragements throughout these years , sadly nobody can change me .

This is the way I'm ,
whether I have been taken for granted ,
whether how many troubles I got myself into for others ,
it doesn't seems it's all worth it though ,
Oh well , everyone makes mistakes therefor there's this day I did this

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Always reminding myself to Forgive & Forget .

Thank you dear friend & teachers ;

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blogg-ed at 11:30:00 PM

Nov 6, 2010

I remember how we girls date . .

I remember how crazy we get when we're out . .

I remember how much time & effort we put in this room . .

I enjoyed having lunch together , like a family . .

How much we all loves COLA !

How ugly we were , no matter how much money we spend dressing up in Bugis Street . .

How HEELS gave us HELL .

& How humiliated I felt when my very best friend has all the good genes . .

How my silly girls got themselves FAMOUS over a sugar . .

How cork can my display picture used to be . .

How we used to find it chio . .

This is who I turn out to be when I'm with all of you . .

Uhems , I'm not the only crazy one . .

That's not it .

When we were younger , uglier & slimmer . .

*Fuck all of the 'Pink Sockings' comments , I LOVE IT (Y)

I don't change much , have I ?

My apologies for the photo quality -.-

Although , most of us have drifted . . I believe we all do miss those years .

There's not much to say , those pictures & every moment we all shared are dear .
Friends comes & go , we been thru lots of laughter & tears ,
I won't denied that there are times I disliked a few of you so & so ..
oh well , I understand no one is perfect ~
I'm happy that all these years you guys were all there for me whenever I needed you & forgive each others mistakes .

But there are times ENOUGH IS ENOUGH , referring to someone 'you know who' .
I wish she get this message , because I'm sick of chasing after her shit , just finish things smoothly & you don't even need to hear from me anymore .

I wish everyone all the best in their future , of course if there's anything just ring me up !

As you can see , most of the parents always thinks that all of us are bad influence ,
but what they do not know is that all we want is someone to understand us , listen to us , be there for us , even though things that we did may be wrong instead of punishment we'd like you to be our friend to share with us your experience & lead us to the right way .
Being a teenager , we always screwed our life cuz' no one teach us to take care of ourselves , just like being a mother no one teach you to take care of your child , just like being a father no one teach you to cope with such responsibility .
Using violence or abusing your authorities we only will walk away from you , not listening to you nor understands you , just like your spouse cheats on you & you know well enough you're done .
As for us , it's different case cuz' we couldn't support ourselves .

I'm glad that since young my mom always tells me to 'Think before you do' although I may did something real bad that's because I always have ways to cover my backside ! Be smart .
I really enjoy very much being bad , to be honest , who doesn't ? (:

& Finally NORTH VISTA SECONDARY sucks to the coreeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (:
Activities SUCK(S) , Uniform SUCK-ER, Disciplinary management SUCK-EST , Teachers - Lagi worst , speechless .
So whoever passed-by that considering to opp for that school , please change your mind right away !!

Goodnight dear readers (:

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Teenage Dream blogg-ed at 7:42:00 PM